Happy Halloween!

In Finland, we don't really celebrate Halloween. We just remember those who have passed. Anyhow, I'm a real fan of Halloween with all the costumes and everything. Some day I will hopefully live in America and have real Halloween parties. But this year, I will settle for eating candy and watching a horror movie with my friends. Don't know which movie yet. And I will also consider possible Universities where to apply and plan a biology lab work. Now that's real horror.
I used to have some really creepy photos on my computer, but like I explained some time ago, those files are all vanished. Damn. I wanted so bad to publish them on Halloween.
One Halloweenish thing there is in Finland: it gets dark before 4pm.

Spooky Halloween for all creatures!

Just my luck

I've been sick for almost two weeks now. It's been quite horrible. I've had high fever and throat so sore I have barely been able to talk, not to even mention eating... I've never been this sick before, and of course this illness chose to happen now when it really shouldn't have happened. I was supposed to participate this theater thing organized in our school, but there was no way I could have gone to the auditions. It wouldn't have bothered me that much if it hadn't been quite essential for a University application. As I have told before, I want to study film making, but I don't really have any experience about it to impress the Universities. This would have been a great opportunity to do that. But no. Maybe it's Karma or something, even though I don't really believe in that stuff. Anyhow, perfectly outside the subject, here's a delightful picture of the process of making orange juice:

Black and Sparkling

I bought new nail polishes today, and I felt the urge to use them all at once. I've been planning to buy black nail polish for quite a long time, so I'm very proud of myself now when I finally had it done. I'm just gonna wear these every single day... Because there's no better combination than black and sparkling.

Achievements

Now that I'm starting to write applications to Universities, I have to start thinking about all the achievements I've made to ensure the Universities that I'd be a fantastic student who they must pick. I'm applying mainly to film making and screenplay programs, so it's not exactly easy to gather experiences on that field. Anyhow, I do have few things I've done that might be worth mentioning, even though in reality, they aren't very challenging performances...

When I was something between nine and twelve (well remembered...) I acted in a short film as an extra. I was a zombie roaming from a dark forest along other zombies. So basically I just walked slowly towards a camera covered with fake bruises and blood. And you can't even see more than my silhouette in the film, among the other silhouettes around me. But hey, it's better than nothing.
Another one of my acting performances was when I was sixteen years old. I was a tutor for younger students, and therefore I and the other tutors were asked to participate to this thing they organize for kids who are about to move from primary school to junior high. In that thing, the kids were just frightened with all kinds of bad scenarios of pedophiles looking for victims online and the consequences of using alcohol or smoking or using drugs. I was performing in the alcohol, smoking and drug abuse part as a junkie. My job was to sit in a closet under a sink and crave for more pills. Then the kids came into the room where the performance took place, and I crawled out of the closet to scare them. I guess that counts as an acting performance.

I have also been in school plays, but so has everyone. At least in my primary school we always had some stupid play for Christmas and everyone had to participate. Once when we went to church from school, I got to be an angel in the Christmas thing that I have no idea what it's called in English. Joulukuvaelma. So I just stood there in front of people in a white gown with other angels and Mary and Joseph. Cool.

So, in a nutshell, I've been a zombie, a junkie, an angel, and I'm pretty sure I've been a tree in some play in pre-school. Impressive.

I Wouldn't Step In

You know those days when nothing actually bad happens, but all kinds of little, annoying things keep coming up until you're so exhausted and outraged you just wanna sit down and cry?
I made a poem that makes no sense, but perfectly describes how I'm feeling right now.

I Wouldn't Step In

I trusted the wrong people

I chose procrastination

Now I don't give a damn,

but I care too much

I hate today

the disregard that held me up

I'm slowly fading

thought it wasn't my fault

How do they do that?

I can hear the words falling out

I can't understand

What drives them forward

What makes them smile

What made me walk away

What made them try again

I guess they're called priorities

I guess no one shares mine

But they talk so loud

and they understand what I don't

and I see what they are blind to

And our worlds will never meet

It's cold outside,

but I wouldn't step in

Even if the door was wide open