Stream of Tired Thoughts

I've been laying in my bed for almost three and half hours, unable to sleep, so this is gonna be a tired post. It's really foggy out there, I look outside and all I can see is white. I saved a bee from a lake today. I even tried to do my math project around 3am. It didn't work out. I hate math. Really, really deeply. I also hate psychology, biology and Spanish, leaving only two of my school subjects unhated: English and Finnish. Oh, and I also hate Theory of Knowledge. I kind of also hate it that whenever I start writing down random thoughts I end up making a list of what I hate. But why stop now? I hate waking up early. I hate it that in the morning I prefer to take the bus to school and in the afternoon I prefer my own car when I'm leaving school. I hate people who drive too slow. I hate people who wear fur and people who say one person going veg doesn't change anything. I hate sunny winter days and sunny summer mornings. I hate romance and especially much I hate romcoms. I hate it when I'm hungry even though I just ate. I hate the "normal" everyday rhythm, my normal natural rhythm is going to bed 3am and waking up 1pm. I hate that my hair doesn't grow and that my natural color is so boring. I hate talking or reading or hearing about healthy lifestyles. I hate shopping mostly because I never find anything I really like. I hate it when people assume all women like babies and little kids. Well I don't. I hate that it's risky to drink too much coffee and that wearing no other shoes than high heels ruins your feet. I hate public swimming pools. I hate it when things are made too complicated. I hate it when people talk deep soft stuff. I hate it when people litter like they don't give a damn about this planet. I hate cooking. I hate all the "love is the meaning of life"- stuff. But you know, just for balance, I'll tell what I love. I love the rain. I love it when I wake up in the morning and it's raining. I love listening to music on a bus. I love writing. I love coffee and chocolate and cheesecake. I love cats and reindeer and spiders and frogs. I love black roses and the countryside where my summer cottage is. I love swimming in a lake. I love that fog out there. I love lying on the grass. I love Midsummer Day. I love cookies. I love my leather jacket (fake leather). I love lunch breaks and coffee breaks. I love staying in bed and listening to others go to work (I'm doing it right now). I love vacations. I love my renovated summer room. I love dancing. I love driving alone because then my radio won't break anyone's ears. I love staying aside not caring a bit when people stress about something meaningless. I hate it that I can't come up with more things I love right now. I'm too tired. I've been lying here for four and half hours now. Two more and I'll get up and go to the "main building" to make coffee. What's the point of sleeping anymore, it's pass 7am... That did not sound like me. Anyhow, my ears are ringing for some reason. There are crows outside. I'm terrible at writing endings. Bye people.