I've been sick for a while now, making me unable to go to gym. Right when I had a little motivation. I've been spending way too much time writing some of my essays, and the teachers still think I could do better. I could just stop trying and be happy as long as I pass. That's the attitude I have studied with in high school this far. But now it's the last year and I have a drop more motivation to get better grades. Had*. That motivation is slowly fading. I tried to avoid stress by doing everything on time, and it was going quite well for some time: I'm ahead of the schedule. But I can't avoid the fact that there is just so much to do that no matter how hard I work, the essays and projects will never end. (Deep sigh...)
I just finished one 1400 word essay. It doesn't really make me feel especially happy, since there are still damn many more similarly long essays to write. If I somehow get into a University, how am I ever going to survive there? Last week I finished a 4000 word essay, but apparently I still have to modify it, and I'm already perfectly fed up with it. Feels so useless, I know I won't get a very good grade whether I put an effort on it or not. It just tends to happen. It's impossible to get the best grade nowadays, unless you're some abnormal super-brain. Why do they put that grade on the scale when no one can have it...
My motivation is used up, and there's still six months to go. Six months, three or four exam weeks, nine long essays, some including laboratory working, few lab reports, two projects, five books to read and the entire project of applying to a University. Plus CAS service. Meaning voluntary working on top of all that. And when all that is over, I will start studying for the final exams.
I just finished one 1400 word essay. It doesn't really make me feel especially happy, since there are still damn many more similarly long essays to write. If I somehow get into a University, how am I ever going to survive there? Last week I finished a 4000 word essay, but apparently I still have to modify it, and I'm already perfectly fed up with it. Feels so useless, I know I won't get a very good grade whether I put an effort on it or not. It just tends to happen. It's impossible to get the best grade nowadays, unless you're some abnormal super-brain. Why do they put that grade on the scale when no one can have it...
My motivation is used up, and there's still six months to go. Six months, three or four exam weeks, nine long essays, some including laboratory working, few lab reports, two projects, five books to read and the entire project of applying to a University. Plus CAS service. Meaning voluntary working on top of all that. And when all that is over, I will start studying for the final exams.
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